The first time that I watched Fuck Yeah Levi Karter I didn’t know what to expect. I was excited for a new Levi scene and as I pushed play I expected it to be similar to what I had already come to love about him and Cockyboys. However, as I pushed play and watched him do flips on the screen that every so slowly turned to him having phone sex I knew it was going to be something special. After the disco like entry I realized just how different it was going to be. I smiled and cried as I watched it, especially knowing some of the moments first hand.
Since that day I have watched it numerous times, both in full and bits and pieces. I never thought that it would be featured at any type of festival. I had wished that I could make it to Berlin Porn Festival, but couldn’t so when I heard that it was going to be featured at the NYC Porn Festival I jumped on the chance to see Levi’s creative work on a huge screen!
When Jake Jaxson invites you to New York City, you find a way to make it happen. Especially if that means I get to see Levi just before Christmas!
It took some scheduling, but I made it happen. I was so excited the night before I couldn’t sleep, passing out for a quick nap before taking a cab to the airport at 4:30am. I was so nervous about flying by myself, but without a glitch I was on the plane at 6am and headed to NYC with a quick layover in Detroit.
It’s been a week and a half, but I finally have my post done! Here is my weekend from Grabbys 2014!
I waited a year…12 months…365 days…8765 hours for Grabbys 2014. Actually, more than that. I started counting down the beginning of May last year. It started with a want to meet Levi. He was so sweet and sexy. I’d just found him, to know that he was so close, along with all the Cockyboys, was killing me last year. A 3 ½ hour trip to get there, but I wasn’t able to go. Everything happens for a reason, I guess something in the universe wanted me to wait.
It was never official, just a dream I had to make it to Chicago for the 2014 Grabbys. I needed to meet Levi, I needed a hug, and I needed the face to face time. But I have a family, a child that needs to be cared for and a husband I can’t exactly depend on. So many variables I didn’t know if I was going to be able to make it happen. No matter how much I talked about it being a sure thing, there was always that fear that it wasn’t going to really happen.
It became official in February. The room was booked, the husband was notified and the plans were being made. It was the longest 3 months of my life.
I have a tattoo obsession. I love the way they look on other people, I want to hear the stories behind them, and am constantly looking for new ideas. However, until recently I only had one for myself. (Plus about 50 ideas for more!)
So, about 2 months ago I was talking to Paul about Levi’s Paraguay tattoo. We always joke about the reason behind it. (If you don’t know, he was adopted from Paraguay.) I told Paul I needed a small Paraguay tattoo for Levi. He then suggested that I find the Paraguayan word for son, and well, that’s a genius idea!
When Levi calls and says it’s “for business” I listen. So when he called and asked me to do everything I could to promote him and get everyone to vote for him for Cybersocket Best New Porn Star I did everything I could. Between a video, a lot of tweeting and voting as much as I could I did everything I could to help him the last few days of voting.
Jump to January 22. I hadn’t heard anything about the results, and wasn’t sure if Levi knew beforehand. The minute that JJ posted a vine showing Max Ryder and Ricky Roman helping Levi into a tie and suit jacket I had a feeling he’d won, but at the same time my nerves went through the roof. I wanted this for him so badly. I wanted Levi to be recognized for the work he does, the films that I know he is proud to be in.
I think by the time he won it was about 2am my time, maybe later, I’m not even sure. I felt like a proud mom the moment I saw the tweet that he won. I called a friend and sobbed on the phone. I was just an emotional mess. I didn’t sleep that night, Levi called and we talked for a few minutes. I was on a fan girl/proud mom high that lasted until the next afternoon!
This is just the beginning for Levi. It’s been a year since he signed with Cockyboys. He’s had the chance to share his personal life with all of us. He’s grown so much since I first met him last April. He had the chance to direct, record and edit his own video with the help of Jake Jaxson. I can’t wait to see where he goes, to support him in everything he wants to try.
For me, Levi winning the Best New Porn Star was like watching my son go off to kindergarten. I was the beginning of something that will be hard and challenging but also fun and exciting. He will learn so much as he follows the career he’s created in this past year. And at the end, when he reaches his ‘graduation’ I will be there as well, with tears in my eyes and ready to support him on his next adventure.
I am a mom.
I am a porn mom.
The two interweave together in a way I never imagined.
I wasn’t looking for Levi Karter when he showed up in my life. I’m sure he wasn’t looking for or even prepared for me when I showed up in his life. I need to ask him sometime what he first thought…
Anyway, it was all by chance that I found Levi and my life hasn’t been the same since. What started as “OMG look at him….he’s so hot” has become so much more than just looks. He’s an amazing person who I am so happy and privileged to have in my life. I still fan-girl over his pictures, drool on the screen when he has videos released, and flail when he’s sexy or adorable, but at the same time I protect and support him like I would my own child.
Levi asked me once to explain porn mom. I am his adopted mom. He is part of my family, as much in my heart as my own child. He is a big brother to my son. I am his friend, his sounding board and his biggest fan. I support Levi in everything he does. I am here for him to talk to about anything, without judging. Unlike his own mom he feels free to talk to me about everything. I think every porn star/porn mom relationship is different. The way they interact is unique to them. What Levi and I have is uniquely ours and it works for us. There are challenges, but there are also phone calls when all we do is giggle at each other.
So with that, I say welcome to my world. If you are looking for “insider information” or secrets about Levi or Cockyboys, you might as well leave now. I’m not doing this for attention and would never break the trust that Levi has in me. I am doing this for myself. This is my world, I hope you enjoy a little glimpse into it.